this is real this is me, sincerely lovele.

ill never understand how i can feel on top of the world to the feeling like its the world against me...
im crawling in my skin , see the pain , sadness, the anger, the fear in my eyes.

i've never felt so alone.

strictly parent xmas list wht i expect them to get me
itouch
dvd player
perfume one of the above:
- with love:hilary duff
-juicy courture
-ed hardy
-pink/hello kitty/zebra stuff for my room

xmas list for everyone else who wants to buy me something
^.^
victoria secret giftcards.
forever21 giftcards.
hco giftcards.
$$$
purses.
onezie pjs.
snuggie.
new dangly belly button rings.
earrings
wii games , 1 controller.
- cooking mama
-cake mania
( strictly fun E games .kid like games but nothing to
babyish)
movies.

( Note: i can live without the wii shit )

xmas wish list that no one will buy me that i'll never get
:(
new real hair black 18" EXTENTSIONS.

and i hate how much i love you boy
i cant stand how much i need you
and i hate how much i love you boy
but i just cant let you go
and i hate that i love you so


storyofmylife,lovele

where are you now? When i need you the most..........


where are you now? when nothings going right...

you dont fight for anything anymore, its been like ths for lil while now
i feel like you just give up every night,
that your tired of it
its like your sick of me
you dont fight for me , anymore-
you dont make an effort to fix anything anymore
you settle for it being not ok. its a mhm , or a ok , or w.e or not call back and even the next day morning
i get nothing.... you leave it how it is.
and the boyfriend i use to have
would ALWAYS txt me/call me a million times until that one txt id finally answer back....
he'd leave voicemails .....saying how much hes sorry how much it doesnt matter , saying how much he loves
me. i looked forward to those voicemails.


i'd be lucky now to get that....
its like you dont care as much as you did before.
your different ....


if you wont fight for me then im not going to waste my time fighting for you...